Journal 1-08-09

"And He said, “Do not lay your hand on the lad, or do anything to him; for now I know that you fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son, from Me.” Genesis 22:12

Abraham was tested in a way that blows my mind every time I read it. God asked him to surrender his most precious possession, his only son. This was a peek into what
God Himself would do a few thousand years later. But God asked Abraham to surrender all he had. When Abraham passed the test, God knew that Abraham was totally His. It almost seems as I read the passage that God was impressed with this man's dedication.

I wish that I could be as Abraham was. I wish that I could be completely surrendered to God like that. But honestly, I'm not there. If God asked me to give up one of my children to Him in that manner, what a struggle it would be. But when I look at Abraham's life and the dedication he had, and the blessings He received, it makes me want to surrender myself in the way he did.

Lord, help me. I'm no Abraham. But somewhere in my heart, I want to be. Only You can bring me to that place of surrender.